meeting people comes two-fold

i’ve learned i have to distinguish between people projecting and people giving sound advice

sometimes advice is biased

sometimes people are blindly labeling you

but other times, they are great mirrors for you

but as long as you’re standing true to who you are, then you never have to wonder what words are and aren’t for you

i used to be someone who soaked in every word- i did something wrong? i’ll fix that. i could do this better? i’ll practice more. you’re not happy? let me please.

so when i was with someone who didn’t care what i did whether right or wrong, i felt like i didn’t know which direction i wanted to go. i didn’t have someone else influencing what i do? i didn’t know what to do with that. in hindsight, what a great gift to have freedom of direction. but my mind felt compelled to look to him for answers when i didn’t even know how to look within for answers.

in my teaching career i was always one to please, to do better, because i know i’m not the best. i thought it served me to always strive to be better than i am now, rather than believing how i am now is good enough.

that’s outdated and it’s about time i start believing i am the best and good enough right now. with room to grow, of course.

i’m a work in progress.