after another journey of transfers and traveling, i made it to the island.

i slid the door open and lo and behold, there it was: the silence.

and it was loud.

so loud i almost didn’t know what to do with myself.

happy to have finally made it to the spot id be planted at for the next 28 days, i took a second to check in with some loved ones.

plopped down on my hammock and gave myself some phone time. walked back inside and stared at my things – what to do next??? i decided to explore my surroundings. my immediate abode’s yard was small so that was short lived. back in my room. what next???

beach time, baby.

not even bothering to unpack, i gathered the essentials.

towel, solar charger, hat and some cash.

moseyed my way down the road, walking real slow, taking it all in.

i get to the beach and there’s no one there, a sporadic sun bather here and there, i count two people on the beach and a few others lounging closer to their bungalows.

watch for the jellyfish, the receptionist told me. i see a few beached on the sand, tempted to touch, but decided to leave this, maybe dead, animal be.

i found a nice sand bank connected to the beach, ah sweet, no jellyfish can get me there, i think.

i continue to say to myself, fuck that, i don’t have anyone here to pee on me, so i gotta play it safe.

i plop my things down and walk on the sand bar. i pause. hands on my hips. i gaze out.

i made it.

i stare out and there it is again…

the peace, the quiet, the solitude.

i think back to my mindset at arrival and how i almost felt restless.

but here i am, feet in the sand, breeze at my hair, and im calm, cool, collected.

i close my eyes and take a few deep breaths.

you know what to do, i tell myself, you just need to remind yourself.

this is the long, awaited moment ive anticipated, craved:

i’m alone.

absolutely, completely alone.

it hit me.

i didn’t have the comfort of the city to keep me company.

i was here, alone, listening to the waves, the birds, gazing at the bright green trees.

enjoy it. i tell myself.

let these moments encompass you and let it do what it’s supposed to for you.

immerse. dive in. just be.